>>1 @CP001 I am very similar to you. I was the same as you a few years ago, and only last year started to try wearing makeup but it feels weird (not physically, just generally). I went through a mild depression when I was in my last year of elementary and throughout high school. I only wear light makeup now for events where I need to for professionalism or sometimes for photo/videos, but I don't always even for those situations. I also enjoy seeing others who wear makeup well and those videos etc. Another reason I don't wear makeup often is because I've had acne prone skin for a long time and I can't stop touching my face and making the scars worse, so I avoid makeup making me break out more (even though I am sometimes tempted to use makeup to cover it, I end up not doing so, because I decided to let people see my real face, and that also narrowed down the people who don't like people because of how they look.
Depending on how old you are, you may just need time to figure out what you want to do and what matters to you the most. I am an introvert, so I don't mind having less people to be close with, so many of my life choices are based on what I want for myself. I wasn't always like this, but I think it is a good decision for me. When making others like you / worrying about what people think of you becomes a lower priority, you can focus on other priorities and also save time by letting only those who like you for who you are be your friends/acquaintances. You don't need a million people's approval, and sometimes I realize that I don't need to be so concerned with my own approval half the time, because we can all be too harsh on ourselves and so we don't need to listen to that negative voice in our head. There are so many things to be busy with in life, things that can improve you in ways that don't negatively affect your mind, so I like being productive in doing things that I love, and hopefully find success in those things over time, as long as I work hard and stay determined.