I'm having struggles between my gender identity and gender expression fitting in with each other.

Although I maybe identify myself as gender-fluid I'm still questioning myself if it's real to me. I just think b/c I have the privilege of being female, by ID as gender-fluid I have the convenience to switch between genders than a male would. So for the time being my gender is not concrete yet.

This was because I was reading "The Sun Rises" and as I was reading the spark notes it mentioned on being confident with one's masculinity. I don't even feel confident with my masculinity or femininity and it also complicates with my gender.

I reject most things that are feminine yet I know part of me does respect and enjoy things that are feminine. I feel I have to be over-masculine to prove that I am a man yet with questioning my gender ID is making it really difficult.

With my sexuality I have a mix with my feminine and masculine side yet I can't for sure know confident to embrace one or the other or both. I feel like I can't have both and don't feel confident I'm both.

I would just love having a male-bonding experience with my male friends but b/c I am mostly female to them I feel like I can't break that boundary which really upsets me, plus I don't make many male friends mostly female friends.

Although I do enjoy female-bonding moments, it would be really nice if I did have a male-bonding experience.

Look at this from biology.
Would you fuck a girl? Yes? You're a guy.
No? Go to next question.
Would you fuck a guy? Yes? You're a girl.
No? You're asexual and gender doesn't matter.

If you don't know then wait til you know. No ifs and buts.
Btw, it's not a good indicator, but you can observe the way you walk.
Ladies are usually more graceful than gents.

Figure out what you want and just stop trying to give it a name. All these different labels can be useful, but really are not all that important. Identifying with things is overrated anyway.

Why the fuck does it even matter? Is what gender you are really going to change your behavior or views in the world? Because it shouldn't. Regardless of what gender you are, that shouldn't change the way you act or your behavior towards people. You are yourself, and whatever gender you turn out to be shouldn't profoundly affect the core of your being. Which brings me back to my question of why the fuck does it matter.

/sage

Hahahaha don't let go of a goood friend :)

I don't know if op will read this but I figured I'd put it in anyway in case this thread comes back up.

>>1 Yeah the difference in genders definitely gives everyone an involuntary different view on the opposite sex. It's like when you see a girl and guy the same age together a lot you just automatically wonder if they're a couple. I think that the ideas of love and sex just make it hard in general to be able to get close as friends to the opposite sex. I guess all you can do is find the right kind of croud with your kind of views on this.
As for genders themselves, you're obviously born one of them so if anything it simplifies which one to refer yourself as if you can't decide, but I think that being on the border is a good thing. You get to see both worlds, whereas for most people the two worlds are both very very different, and I guess we just naturally assume that they should be as seperate as they are now. But I think it's great, being able to see everyone as equal, although I guess it doesn't work that simply though. Also, just wondering but does this mean that you're bisexual?

But I've thought in a very similar way to one of the things you said. As a guy I just don't talk to girls much and I kind of wish that it was a lot easier to. And I bet that just by reading that you would assume that I meant something to do with love or sex or getting a girlfriend or whatever, which is the problem because I could care less about that stuff for now. I want to just be able to see everyone equally, and not have some factors like gender getting in the way of it. Is that the kind of way you're thinking?

It seems this kind of topic covers most new Personal threads these days. Someone really should just make a hub thread for this.