This is a rant post, just need to get this stuff off of my chest. Going to meet the children of my god father later today, who I've met before but only when I was really little. I'm going to meet them with my whole family (my parents and siblings) but I really dont want to meet them. My god siblings are excellent people, and I would like to talk to them but my family is just so weird it gets awkward when trying to talk to them. I think I'm relatively decent but who knows, maybe I'm weird as hell as well and havent gotten the full picture. I'm not sure if this makes any sense, but an example is that my god sister is studying to be a doctor, my god brother is an engineer in the UK and the other one is graduated from Yale. I go to a uni in the UK and I think I study psych (hopefully in a few years neuroscience) but one of my brothers got kicked out of uni this fall bc of a failed resit, and somehow still has a weird complex (he is also autistic and depressed so he REALLY can't talk to people well- says he "hates small talk" and his go to for any conversation is: "what do you know about philosophy") and my other brother is ok, but he acts like he just doesn't give a fuck half the time, and can't be bothered to talk to people and it's embarrassing going out with them bc they don't know how normal people talk. It's just so humiliating among other things, such as I myself aren't very good with making conversation past "how do you find uni?" And that my parents and my got siblings all speak a 3 languages fluently, and I don't speak 1 of them well (their language of choice). It's always a bit degrading asking we can speak in English or if they can repeat something. I truly am trying to get better at that language but it's slow. In addition, bc of weird social norms in my family/country, I can't bring much else up other than uni. I can't connect with these people like in a normal setting and can't talk about things like things going on in my life which might actually be able to start a conversation. I want to meet them and make a good impression and not seem totally socially awful but with my family there with me that becomes sooooo difficult. So idk if I really want to meet them. For god's sake I'm in uni and there are still people I am meeting for the first time in my family. Unbelievable. Send your thoughts and prayers please, I'll need them

I feel really awful. I am studying at a fairly good uni in the UK, (top ten in the UK for my subject, and top 30 in Europe), and my mom doesn't like that I am here and not in my home country for uni. My home country doesn't have good unis, or many job opportunities, so initially they sent me to the UK for good opportunities. Also, initially when I got the offer for my uni, my mom told me "I don't know why you're so excited, you're not going to get in." And I did. But not that's not good enough anymore. If I go back to my home country for my masters, I get to be around my family but I will not be making a lot of money, and it will be very difficult for me since I haven't ever learned the academic side to my language, I only know conversational since I grew up in another English speaking country and then moved back to my home country. I am so upset that it's not good enough for her and I have no idea what to do and every time we finish calling I have to sit for like 30 min and do nothing bc I get so depressed from the comments of "no one is going to take you for a job bc it's a good school, no one cares.". I hate this and myself. This sucks I just want things to get better.

Persuading your own carrier isn't reason to hate yourself. Its normal for mothers to be attached to their children but we also need to grow up one day and it's hard to accept that, but im sorry she isn't supporting you. I also moved to a different country for uni but it isn't a good one like yours but still much more opportunities for me than in my own country. Money isn't the most important thing so just follow your hart and do what you think is best for you. You're looking for your own happiness, i know money brings a lot of things but its ussles if you unhappy in life. In the end she will be proud of you whatever you chose. I just hope you choose well by yourself and you don't make a mistake by listening what other people want.

If you knew the world would end tomorrow, what would be the last thing you would do?

My fiance doesn't like when I draw, when I do I take about 2-5 hours doing it. I limited myself to only drawing 3 times a week but I got bored so I started writing during my times I'm bored and doing nothing except staring at a wall. He doesn't like that either and wants me to only do that on days I draw. What should I do? He works on computers, security cameras, etc. I'm the artsy type, so our interest don't match. I don't want to do what he's doing because it's boring and makes no sense to me.

Hey! That sounds really tough. A few questions: why does he care that you are drawing and what do you mean he doesn't like it when you draw? Is he telling you that he wants your attention elsewhere? And if so, doing what instead?

I get lost in the flow of your words to a smile. Captivating my soul in a trap so elaborate it would be called “going through life”. The pleasantries never spoken yet infinitely heard. It’s blasphemy. That someone so beautiful can touch so many hearts and ever be affiliated with the poison of humanity. It may not be a love letter, but if love is the question I carried it passionately till it burned up in my hand and now there is nothing but the pleasant thoughts of your voice swaying me to sleep like the slow rain drizzling on my window, with my head rested on the cool pillow of your breast. It’s maddening, I choose open-ended analogies because my dream is a fantasy but it allows me to keep my heart covered with the thoughts of possibilities. Maybe one day right?

That's a good poem.

Hi im new to the Dollars

My partner got upset at me for fan girling over a character in a movie we were watching together, they told me they hate how I’ll fan girl over guys in shows (I only fan girl over anime btw not real people.) I feel kinda upset because I never thought it was a problem when we were dating, I’ve always been like this since I can remember (even as a kid) and I know I should try to not make my partner upset but when I think about it I get conflicted. It’s so reasonable for my partner to ask this of me because sometimes it can turn into me obsessing about a fake character, to the point I’ll buy merch of them.

you are allowed to fan girl over things. it's a completely normal thing to do. people buy merch for their favorite characters (and real people too!) all the time! i think your partner is being weirdly controlling in this. you are simply having fun so what's the problem? if it's a "you don't pay enough attention to me" thing then thats seriously concerning. having a favorite character is not a big deal "obsessing" over a favorite character is not a big deal. if you aren't allowed to look away from your partner for a little while to enjoy something that makes you happy, that is not okay.

So I have REPEATEDLY told my boyfriend since long ago that if he doesn't want to talk or if we're in the middle of an argument, to NEVER just hang up. But he still does, even after 5 years of dating. He just...hangs up. And when he feels like it's already okay on his side, he's gonna talk to me like nothing even happened in the first place.

Honestly, it's very tiring and I'm REALLY considering ending this fucking relationship. But if there's any hope in saving this, then I'll save it. I know I sound crazy, but how do you deal with people who just hangs up the phone when they're mad and then talk to you several hours later like nothing even happened?

To be honest, I am confused what is the problem here...

You were having an another argument about something and the guy felt that if the argument continues, it will get ugly so he decides to sop the argument but somehow that's a problem...

To me it looks like you are arguing with him for the sake of the argument and not to make a decision about a specific thing. I personally think that's kinda toxic from your side. Sorry.