1 Name: namiko : 2026-08-25 10:16 ID:RP6Y+/RK [Del]
i was laid off in december from an office job i had no intention of doing long term. it was called a layoff, but i also think my dwindling productivity had something to do with it. for the past 3 or so years, i've been wondering if i have adhd, but i kept putting off seeing someone or getting a diagnosis (go figure). so anyway, i wasn't super efficient. always felt like i was just keeping up.
after i lost my job, i was super lucky that my friend offered me a role at his company. even better, it was in the arts industry and in a role i was genuinely interested in. i was super excited, and started working in january. now its august and all i can think about is how much i mess up at work. how behind i am. how unproductive i am. when i have the focus and willpower, i can do really good work. but then i get into these cycles of procrastination and anxiety that are so hard to escape.
worst part is that i genuinely want to be good at this job and enjoy it. but i keep letting myself down. i feel like i'm in this limbo where i appear to do well, but the reality is that i am really struggling to keep up. it's sort of the same for relationships--never been in one but also don't really have a strong desire to be in one. I just feel like i'm in between failing and succeeding, in the sense that i experience both extremes at the same time. it's a weird place to be, and i hate how i am right now (with regards to work). i want to feel settled, and capable, and enjoy the work i do, because i do think it would be enjoyable if i just got out of my head.
2 Name: Wolf_ren : 2026-09-06 13:56 ID:CZ5t6cyq [Del]
The feeling of "Yeah, i might have ADHD, but I'll get around to figuring that out eventually--" loop is so real, I took like four years to get around to getting a diagnosis bc it kept slipping my mind. It does sound like you're experiencing some kind of burnout tho, the feeling you describe sounds very familiar. I hope you manage to get some time to take care of yourself and recover a bit, the self-blame only worsens the emotional stress that factors into causing burnout a lot of the time
There's also nothing wrong with not wanting to be in a relationship, society pushes a one true life path for everybody that doesn't actually have much bearing on a lot of people. If you don't want to be in a relationship, seeking one out because it's what people are "meant" to do will do the opposite of help
