2 Name: 1dolr : 2026-02-16 22:06 ID:4cC9iMyA [Del]
I hope nobody in your life is making you feel that way, but I get how it feels from within.
you're not a negative person. you're not pathetic. everyone struggles - not to minimize your feelings, but just to say, everyone has negative moments. its part of life. its totally fine to be in the dumps sometimes, esp if you're dealing with mental health issues.
maybe see if there's anyone in your life you can help a little. anyone you can make smile. anything you can do to brighten another's day. even a pet or a plant counts. make note of those things, each little one. write them down in a notebook, even, give yourself a physical record to look back on - and pat yourself on the back for them, cuz you deserve it. let them stack up, and congrats, you are, objectively, a positive influence on the world ! maybe that could combat the guilt, then. 'I've helped others a lot, I can give myself a break and be helped instead sometimes'
cuz it feels good to help other people. & /letting/ people help you back, even if it's only a tiny amount, lets them feel good about themselves, too. People connect through ALL emotions, not just happiness, yknow?
& always thank people for trying, even if they couldn't help you a whole lot. it's good to take a moment to acknowledge the effort. acknowledge that you're loved. even while sad. you'll prob feel a little better just for that, and the other person will too
Ily, I hope you find people who're willing to help <3
3 Name: Est : 2026-03-01 03:14 ID:TFVpFNoe [Del]
hey @1dolr thanks for this. some stuff you have mention so ive been doing that ever since 2019 when i met my bestfriend who i think of it as a family.
During my Highschool and Senior Highschool Days wayback ive always been used, fake friends even i want to hang out it, betrayed since then ive developed PTSD even finishing highschool when i enter Senior Highschool i was very independent on my own yet i still drop even 4 subjects left no issues on grades, im happy yet i felt something missing and i even questioned that day why did i dropout then developed depression with PTSD triggering.
Thats when 2019 comes in what i have mentioned etc. I really did my best and everything outcomes too yet during this year 2026 college im only 2 subjects left yet i cannot fufill its transfer school or continue due for issues the Dean and Chairprogram questioned hints me that its impossible now to finish.
The issues i have mentioned it started on December because of burnout from research yet this 3 members i have in groups are scared for the leader or stand up i couldnt even brin it to dean due it might backfired and it did happen ko January just WOW. Going back in burnout in December my bestfriend and i were playing yet gets mad on me even hurtful messages i just get down and shutdown thinking what i have done i just want to enjoy our momemts. Now in January i mentioned this problem yet the conversation gets thru chaotic even hurtful messages and bringing up past even the person is changed. I havent gone to school in the start of January till today now. I even used SWEAR for last chance because im going to set it right now this kind of situation and all. Because we shared the dream plans and goals as well.
Im thinking of last resort as going to her house even beg for last chance. If the parents used force i have to swallow all the custom sui***e pills i have. I have research whats dangerous like chemicals etc to make custom sui***e pills yet i have gathered all info even news. Im ready for whats comes to me and its already full of regrets now its all my fault because of what happen in my research.
But thank you again @1dolr for this message.
