Well, can't say I wasn't expecting this. I had hoped for the best, but I had steeled myself for the worst.

Why? Why are you getting cold feet?

Why aren't you ready for something long term, something real?

I gave you the best treatment I could. I held myself back from being too smitten, too overbearing.

I gave you the best of me, the best that I could reasonably give at this stage.

I wanted to do more, to give more

But I was afraid of scaring you off

Guess I did anyway

The chemistry was there, the conversation was meaningful, the sex was pretty damn good.

I was unsure about you too,

But I wanted to find out where this could go.

Fast? Sure. Right? Maybe not

But there was room to find out.


All I want is to love

To know someone, inside and out

And to be known, the same

Why are you afraid of that?

When I was your age, just a few years ago, I was aching for it.

Still am, I guess.


You made me think you might have potential.

Something more than just physical, if only I could get past my own trauma, my own fears and insecurities

But you beat me to it

You couldn't even let me have enough time to really make my choice

To know, truly, whether or not it could have been you.


You've relegated me to this purgatory now, a good time, but not the right time.


You don't want this to be a forever goodbye, but you've made it that way.

What little hope and trust I had for you has been dashed

You're just like the rest

Too damaged, or too shallow

Both, perhaps.


And now I will hurt again

Renewed pain

Renewed sorrow

Renewed frustration

What little trust and hope I had, you killed


You told me I was good for your soul

And you left me behind anyway.


I shouldnt stay any longer


Not here

I don't belong here

This happened to me recently too :(