I just need to vent. I have had a pretty rough year so far at uni for various reasons, my degree is tough, I was a bit depressed and didn't do well on exams, I had a falling out with a really good friend and my family is just generally kind of shitty. That isn't really related to the story but ig it's some context. Anyways, yesterday I was able to go out with a good friend of mine I haven't seen for a while, she's really nice but she is still friends with a girl who doesn't like me at all (whole other story) and apparently, this girl who doesn't like me was saying to my friend (let's call my friend Sara) that another friend of mine (let's call him Nick) was saying I am putting on an accent when I am going abroad for uni. For context I am going to the UK for uni and I am an international student. I know nick probably was well meaning and wanted to make s joke to her, but this girl really doesn't like me and wants to publicly humiliate me, and I think he vastly underestimates how much she doesn't like me, and doesn't understand that she is going to twist what he tells her to make me sound like a retard. This is can excuse, I don't really care but what bothers me is that I explicitly asked him to never bring me up to her, and I don't appreciate him using something I said to him, joke or not, as a bargaining chip with her for her friendship. This is also not the first time that I have heard that he has told something to her about me (I have heard it from some other people bc I know all the people she knows, and they like me better than her). I don't know what to do bc I would like to have a clear head about all of this but I am sick to my stomach with anger. Not just at him but with that girl who doesn't like me, my family who doesn't take me seriously even though my brothers have done such stupid things. I hate it. Any advice is appreciated.

Continuation: I am 🤏 this close to just crashing the fuck out. I hate this time of year so much bc I am back from uni. My mom really knows how to get under my skin. I need to either throw myself off of a building or get the hell out of this house. I am so angry I could cry. I am so sick of not being taken seriously and not being able to do anything about it. Oh yeah and my birthday is in a couple of days. I have not once ever been able to do something nice that I want to do for myself for my birthday. Last year I told myself I would have something fun. It doesn't look like this will happen and it makes me so sad I don't want another year to go by like this. I am so sad and angry. That's not specifically why I am angry I just hate it here, for people on here who are passed 20, can you tell me, does it ever get better? I really, really hope it does.

honestly sometimes you just have to go with life as much as you can, if that friend of yours doesn't respect your boundaries you might wanna stop being friends with him cause that sounds like a toxic relationship, you're slowly becoming a ticking time bomb and you don't want that to happen, so best cut that relationship imo.

in my personal experience just tolerating people because you're afraid of being alone isn't worth it, might as well just look for new friends or something, we are social creatures so i don't recommend being alone for too long, as for family matters, all i can say is try to look for good reasons to forgive their behaviour, cause family is irreplaceable, but if what they directly hurts you then seek help from the police but take that as a last resort because once you do that there won't be coming back.

that's my personal advice to you, i hope everything works out for you where ever you are and in case i'm not around happy birthday ;)

have a nice day o//

I'm 26 and I can tell you... it does get better. So much better. As long as you are true to yourself and keep working hard for your own life.

Friends can come and go. You'll learn that some people aren't worth keepimg around. I only still talk to a small group from university and they mean so much to me. Others have been completely cut out.

Family is hard, because they will always be your relatives. But despite what people may say, you are never ever obligated to forgive them. You never have to keep a connection with them. My mom was horrible to my siblings and I growing up. My youngest sibling moved out and completely cut her off, which is very understandable. My sister plans on doing the same. And me? I plan on low contact, and that's only for my dad's sake, cause I still love my dad. Just because someone is family doesn't mean you have to put up with their bullshit. It does make it a difficult decision, but you ultimately have to do what is best for you.

This part of life can be very rough. It's a weird mixed of feeling a taste of independence, but still having dependence on family. And then there's all the school work and the social circles... it's hard to navigate. The transition from adolescence to adulthood just is very awkward and you're likely to make lots of mistakes along the way.

Find little ways to brighten your day. Definitely try to get some sunshine and exercise - it's crazy how much that makes a difference (much to my dismay, I hate exercise). Take care of yourself, physically and mentally. You will get through this. It's rough and confusing and frustrating, but you have to keep your head up. This is all coming from a formerly depressed teen, so I know how it feels to get advice like this. It's hard to be optimistic like that. But like I said at the start, it DOES get better.

Good luck! And happy birthday!