I've been bullied since I was in junior high school, I tried various ways, telling my teachers, parents, etc. but nothing worked, and I think it only made things worse. I don't know how many times I thought about taking my own life in this situation, but in the end, I never did it thanks to my hobby. That's the only thing that keeps me alive until now. But, since that incident, I chose to stay silent (not tell anyone about my problems).
One day, something happened that made me really need money, but I couldn't tell my family because at the same time my family was having financial problems. I was confused about what to do, finally I decided to take out a loan. Then, my older brother accidentally found out that I had a debt. He told our parents. They were angry, they said "Why didn't you tell us anything!?".
I felt guilty because I hid my problems from them, but at the same time, I was very upset. All this time, since I was little, I always told them everything, but what was their reaction?? They never cared about me, they never wanted to understand me. Let alone trying to understand, they never even listened to me. That's why I'm tired of talking, I'm so very tired.
At this moment, the thought of taking my life crossed my mind again. I felt like a glass that would break if touched even a little.

It could maybe help to talk to family and say things what you wrote here, share with them why it was so hard for you to confine in them in this situation. Hopefully they would understand and still support you. Sorry to hear about your experience with bullying. Some people can be so mean. But there are a lot of wonderful and kind people out there too! Hold on!