I just need to vent about my life situation to someone. I'm 30 and I feel like I just suck at every aspect of my life. I'm polite, always try to be friendly but not enough to make them feel like I'm meddeling in anyone business.
In my personal life, i have a few friends but i feel like I'm the one always reaching out.
If something doesn't came up I feel like a I don't hear about them at all. Like I know we are all busy, but still. Lets not even talk about my love life
In my proffessional life, nothing is working out either. I studied translation right out of high school but there was no job market in my country, so I decided to study business administration and I graduated last year with good grades, but guess what? I have been looking for a job for a year and nothing.
I dont want to be the next einstein or fufill a grand ambitionI just want to a normal 9-5 job to lead a comfortable life. I feel like I have done evrything Im suppose to to led a good life, and yet I fail at everything I do. At this point, i wonder why I even bother to even get up in the morning?
Sorry for the long post, I just needed to get it out of my system.

This is pretty normal to feel, you shouldn't feel the need to apologize. We live in a time where we're all more connected through social media but you can still feel so isolated. I don't know much when it comes to the job market but I hope it turns around for you.

It sounds tough to have so many aspects of life be challenging at the same time! Maybe take one thing at a time. Sometimes it can help to find temporary job maybe in different profession while you search for one you really want to have. It could give some feeling of accomplishment. It's really hard to balance following profession you are interested into and at the same time profession what is in demand. Sometimes those two clash. Wishing you luck in job market. I really hope you succeed!

You should not apologize, as stated above by Jarell. The thing is, we all individually grow and age differently. One thing i can recommend out of anything is get comfortable with being alone, and try to enjoy time by yourself. The average person does not have a perfect friend group either, especially at 30 when we're all just figuring shit out.

Career success is also different for everyone, and I'd say, that it sounds like you've made yourself a lot of progress, and more progress than some. Eventually you'll find the right space for you in your industry, but never stop trying and never quit evolving.

If the things you're saying are really true, it sounds like you're doing just great at 30, and never stop being that friendly person that reaches out to their friends. I have someone like that in my own life, and i always feel like i can never be a better friend to them than they are to me. I'm sure you're truly appreciated, you're just not told enough.