I am putting this here because I have no one else to talk about it with and I just really want it out of my system. Yesterday I had a friend over (albeit I don't know him that well) but we were planning on making some stuff and having a bit of whine. I think I maybe had 3 glasses? So I was tipsy, but this was shitty wine so I was not drunk. And he had the rest. To let you know what the "rest" of the wine was, he had came with a bottle of wine, he went he persuaded me to come out with him and get 2 more bottles. So I think I have half a bottle, and he had the rest. We were chatting and having a good time but at some point it was getting quite late and I wanted him out of my house, so I wanted to send him money for an Uber. This is the part that makes me uncomfortable. He had grabbed my hand and then I yanked it away, and then he pushed me down by my shoulder and grabbed the back of my neck. I pushed him off and he ended up throwing my phone a little bit away, so I tried to quickly go grab it but he kind of semi crawled on top of me, which after a second or two he got off, but all of that was genuinely so so so unsettling. In that moment where he was on top of me, the only thing I could think of was how ugly I thought he was. I should also mention that a. I don't think he would have done this if he didn't have so much wine, but I still don't like what he did. B. I am dating someone, he knows this, but was kind of invalidating it since we aren't a serious couple. C. The more wine he drunk, the more he was talking about how beautiful I was and such. God, I wish I had just thrown him out onto the street when he put his hands on me. I can't tell anyone though bc I do fully understand that this situation was my fault for letting a guy be over at my house for so long, and also he is friends with all my friends and they all like him quite a bit. Anyways just needed that off my chest.

I'm sorry this happened to you, it sounds horrifying. I'm glad you stopped it before it got worse but the achohol definitely got to him, my advice would be to cut ties with him entirely, and let him know that he messed up. It's not your fault in any way shape or form, you are the victim here. Stay safe and don't let him come near you again!

I hate to say but he is not your friend when he forced himself onto you. If he had more of a vile moral. you would have gotten raped. You should reconsider who you keep as a friend or acquaintance in your life. With that said, you are wrong to think it is your fault. It is his fault. Not yours. If you care at all to prevent this happening to anyone else!, let your friend group know. If you want to keep away, distance yourself from him and friend group (if you dont trust them). Friends are not always friend. Your (guy) friend genuinely was not a friend. I hope you sre okay. It is not your fault. Stay safe and be smart.

Just gonna say not your fault, he cant control himself, Talk with him about It so he understands IS wrong or get help