Hi, my name is JP and 3 years ago, I made a thread about asking the way to die but without feeling any pain. On that thread, I called myself a coward for not facing death properly and I also explained on why I wanted to kill myself. Mainly because I've disappointed my parents.

Now some people have helped me get on with life on that thread and I'm really grateful to them. They made me double-think about my actions and now I'm here, not dead and still making mistakes.

I am facing the same issues right now as I think that I'm on the verge of killing myself. But instead, I would like to ask the people out there for words or perhaps a thing to say because quite frankly, I don't want to kill myself. But instead, I want to ask, in situations like these, how do I help myself stand up? Everything is starting to hurt a lot and I don't know anymore...

(old thread I made https://dollars-bbs.org/personal/res/1561085926.html)

Please do not hurt yourself, do you have any older adults or counselor who you can talk to?

If you have the ability to get a therapist please do! I have a therapist and it's saved my life in many ways. If you are a man I recommend looking at Kevin Samuels videos to help (older ones) it will help you to get closer to finding your true purpose in this world! Please do not throw away your own life. Suicide hotline is 800-273-8255

My friend, I've been where you are now. The best advice that I can offer is to put it off. Just keep putting it off and things will get better. Time heals all wounds and that's all you need to do give it time.

And reach out for help to any family or friends that you may have. Having someone to talk to means all the world when you're in that situation trust me. Stay safe. Post again if you need help.

you're still here? OH BROTHER

@anonymous MAN ur such a ray of sunshine aren't u? I've been seeing u on everyone's threads saying awful things, maybe stop projecting the fact Ur a miserable in Ur own life onto everyone else, this is an old post but THIS IS SOMEONES LIFE! not a joke. and I bet ur getting such a kick out of it but wait until someone actually hurts themselves.

Damn. I'm also a coward. I don't know if its a blessing in disguise or a devil's scheme to keep me suffering in this world that my disappointing brother got a girl pregnant and I had to take care of the baby for them, so being the coward that I am, this just gave me a reason to put it off.

Thinking about this makes me feel extremely shitty. But I sympathize with you and I don't know what to do too. Just like the DefterMoon says, maybe it's best to put it off.

As someone who went through this and still does, I tried getting help but realized my problems weren’t something a lousy therapist could solve for me. I still have episodes sometimes where I don’t care about what happens to me and it feels like I’m drowning sometimes but I think even with all the trauma in my past life I’ve learned to somewhat move on and forgive myself. It’s something no amount of pills or even venting helped and I know everyone is different in their ways to cope. For me meeting my partner and realizing all the trauma I faced at home was what was causing me to spiral, I found my way out of the cycle and started to live life for myself, I started doing things I loved like drawing again and even made goals and plans for the future. I can’t tell you how to not feel the way you do, because like I said everyone is different but I think the best thing you can do is understand the root cause of why you feel this way and make plans to try and get help. Help could literally be wiping away whatever roots you down enough to spiral.

youve done the biggest thing and admitted you need help, the best thing you can do is talk to those you love and who love you and ask for support. going to see mental health professionals as well is also helpful but can be expensive. wanting to not die is reason enough to keep going.

Fight on>_<