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worried for my future (4)

1 Name: capybara : 2017-05-05 23:21 ID:9IH1f1Zv [Del]

specifically, men. I think this is because my father was barely present in my life while I was growing up. Right now, in my senior year of high school, he has decided to "turn over a new leaf," which is way worse. He is still emotionally abusive towards my mother (I try to avoid him), but now has the audacity to put on a creepy, condescending facade. I have not let him impact how I do in school, and has actually motivated me to work harder so I could get the scholarships I have. I'm moving out this summer to stay in an apartment with my brother, but feel very guilty for leaving my mother with him.
I have never dated or had a boyfriend. Any guy I meet who makes a pass at me makes me feel uncomfortable, and I just automatically assume that they do not have good intentions towards me. But I know that I am not attracted to girls. So while I would like to have casual guy friends and to date, I'm too afraid and wouldn't know what to do anyway in either situation.
So where should I go from here?

2 Name: Some internet person : 2017-05-07 03:04 ID:/hqFa3do [Del]

Hey capybara.

I've had issues with my dad when i've grown up. He was a manipulative sociopath. My brother also isn't very nice. I've kinda come to the opinion that your family is really just people you're kinda stuck with for the start of your life and i don't think you should necessarily have them be in your life if you don't like them.
I'm not sure from what you've written how extreme your dad is but if anything particularly bad happens to you or your mum, you can always get the police involved. (I've had to get them involved a few times with my brother abusing my mum).

For the issues with guys, i'd suggest getting a counselling session if you can, cause it can really help to talk to a professional about overcoming these types of issues. It's not for everyone but it has helped a few of my friends with their issues.

Hope you have a nice time living with your brother. Things do get better when you leave these negative environments.

Best wishes

3 Name: Kcorben : 2017-05-07 10:20 ID:m6mqMnkc [Del]

Well, as for your mother I think you should deffinantly hope for the best for her and do what you can to help make sure she is ok. But at the end of the day you have to look out for you also. Continue to become strong as you have. Evolve and adapt. This may need to include therapy if some kind for what gas happened so far and how to prepare yourself for your future and how you want your life to be, including having a boyfriend or anything else you want to do. In the interim be careful of who you do date if you decide to do such. We are always attracted to what is familiar and as such people who come from difficult homes tend to date people who are like the ones who caused that difficulty. So be weary. If you need anything reach out to us here. We are here for one another. I think it's really why most of us are here. We want to help and sometimes need help. We want to do good.

"The world isn't as bad as you think."

4 Name: capybara : 2017-05-08 10:00 ID:9IH1f1Zv [Del]

Thank you for the support. I haven't considered looking at things from those perspectives, @Some internet person and Kcorben

At the moment, my parents have been talking about a divorce, but my father refuses to let my mother have the house. He keeps trying to compromise, saying that he can just build another house on our property (we have 20+ acres). I really just want him to leave.