So. I have recently come to the conclusion that I am nothing but hate. I hate my family, I hate the degree I'm studying for, I hate my friends, I hate my girlfriend, I hate the people I'm forced to be around on a regular basis. Pretty much everyone I meet pisses me off immediately and if they didn't right away they did later on. I hate the governments of the world and how every country is run because they're all corrupt whether their people know it or not. I hate expression because someone somewhere is going to get offended and ruin it for everyone. To sum everything up I hate everything that exists and I don't know why. I have no reason for me to continue living because I do not want to be a part of this world anymore. There is nothing for me here. I've thought of killing myself and leaving a note, but every time I write out the note it's literally telling everyone who reads it that they can go fuck themselves and why they can do so, it's just worded differently each time. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to live anymore but I don't want to die. I'm never going to see any good in this world because I've already given up. I'm just hoping that someone here can give me a reason to want to do something with this shitty life that I have whether it be to live or give up. So let's hear it.

I don't have much time to reply right now, so I will write a little more later on, but why don't you try finding someone or something you do not hate..? That could be a really good reason to live on! Some more thoughts later, hang in there. Don't lose hope yet :)

try gardening, maybe plant a few sunflowers in a raised bed in your yard, or get some potted plants, or join a community garden. i find that gardening makes me happy

and meditate

Just hate everything and accept it, that's what helped me. Well, not really... Let's see, how do I put this?
I don't hate everything but I also don't like everything. It's more like being indifferent. I guess like.... Not caring maybe. It's like even if things go sour, I don't hate it, but also when things go well, I don't love it. It's more like being an observer than actually getting involved... I don't know, I tend not to do things that involve a strong sense of opinion, because ummm, I don't have much of an opinion? This sounded way better in my head... Maybe this'll help you, I don't know.

It's easy to hate everything and not be hurt, than love everything and be constantly hurt. It's much easier to shut yourself off than to open yourself to being hurt. Don't worry too much about it, I'm quite similar in that aspect. I really hated people too and everything else, though now I simply don't care about most of them. There are those that aren't too bad though, though they are rare. When we say we hate everything, we should also realise that we are kinda also being really selfish, it's all about US hating everything. We hate everything around us because THEY are so bad. Not to say that isn't true to an extent, there are alot of bad things around us, but not everything. Id say, give people a chance still.

First of all, it's normal to not like a lot of things because the world is so dang hard and cruel! As human beings, there are a lot of things we're not going to like here and it's never going to be easy. But don't give up! Even though there are many things in the world that we don't like, there are also some amazing things out there! You just have to find them. In my personal experience, I was very depressed after my grandma died. We were really close and even though I knew she was going to pass away soon (she had Stage 4 bladder cancer), it still hit me so hard. I was depressed to the point where I barely ever wanted to go anywhere. I just wanted to be in my own little world. However, after I graduated from high school, I went on to this Christian university that I wanted to go to my whole senior year. I was so excited to start there and I felt as though I started to have all of these amazing blessings from God coming into my life. I made so many friends, had amazing experiences I never expected myself to have, and found how truly wonderful life can be sometimes. I'm still so grateful that God gave me these amazing blessings. My point is, don't give up! Don't let the bad things of the world get to you. Overcome these obstacles that are coming into your way. Defy the odds of the world, embrace the good things, and know that no matter what, God is always with you and here for you because he loves you so much! I'm praying for you and that you'll find your own path that you are destined to walk.