i feel like killing myself and i need help. my mom is a alcoholic and so is her new boyfriend. haven't heard from her in 3 days so i go to see if shes ok. i see her and shes covered in cuts and bruises and both of them are drunk.my grandmas with me and gets in a small fist fight with boyfriend THEN my grandma tries to protect me and get me in the car away from my wasted mom and boyfriend then my grandma and mom get in a fist fight and grandma calls the cops. now im at my grandparents house with my grandpa and grandma and child services might come tomorrow and take me AND my baby brother away and put us in a new home. the only thing i cant figure out is why the world hasn't killed me yet. please i need help, just anything. i'm scared and don't know what to do.

I not trying to say it is but maybe it's for the better.People take wrong turns all the time they just miss what's important.Being scared isn't a bad thing you just need to tell someone and have them tell you "don't worry." I don't really know if this does any good for you but...I can relate.

Anything helps thx

Step 1: Dont ask people on the interwebs for help
Step 2: Call the fucking suicide hotline

sleepology, that was kind of rude.
im bad at advice and kind of a newb at evrythig but here it goes, you shoul be optimistic and talk to a profecinal (not trying to sound meen btw)but i think you need someone to say they love you i hope this gets better for you thogh xD just force yourself to smile and it will make you 4get all the bad things, or thats what toru honda from fruits basket said at least... i hope i helped.

i see , i have nothing to say , but just dont throw away your pride and life for nothing

I'm not very good at talking to people but, i think that you don't have to feel bad , you're just a normal person that had a bad period in their life, you should try to keep calm and don't freak out ( i know it's very hard) but you've got a nice young brother that needs your help now more than ever, and if your family wasn't here for you try to be there for him at least and make proud of you. It must feel hard to 'restart' your life again but it's the best thing you could do ! Just don't try to commit suicide, talk to a friend or your grandparents and don't keep your feeling for your self and if you want to talk i'm here !! And people are mean or making you feel more depressed don't give a shit about what they say/do you're a good person and you deserve a better life !!!

It's okay to be scared or normal, just don't let it get you to the point where all you want is an easy way out. People go through things like this everyday, recently this same situation happened to my cousins (Who are now living with my family) it isn't a bad thing. Your not necessarily going to move to a new house, your grandparents might even take you in. You never know, if you need to talk people are on here and willing to let you vent. Ignore all the people who are mean, they just feel crappy about their life and want others to feel like crap too.Remember "Smile, the world is not as bad as it seems."

you wont be young forever, you wont be foreced to live with pitiful family members forever. one day you will be an adult and be able to make your own choices for better or for worse. Live and you may have a chance at happiness in this outwordly cruel world, die and you will be erased from this existance both its pleasures and its perils. you will die one day one way or another, will you not. why not live, learn, and love for the world can have alot more to offer then you may beleive.

Please do not commit suicide! Stuff like that always makes me upset, and I know somewhat where you are coming from... My mom's old boyfriend/husband suddenly changed into tis scitzophrenic psycho and left. He had been making her upset for eight years, 5 years ago i went to live with my dad, last year my girlfriend moved away and through all that i had gotten so depressed i had thoughts of suicide and cutting. It didn't help that i actually have a pocketknife that i could've used to do those two things. Anyways, im saying in some aspects you are not alone. Please do not kill yourself... I beg of you do not... Your little bro and your friends and family will miss you dearly... so i beg of you, do not kill yourself...

thank you all for the support. im hanging in there a little better than before due to all the support iv gotten so thank you.

I'm almost at tears, because this situation sounds just like a close friend of mines. Almost, exactly like her's. Anyways, you need to try and block at these negatives at best charm. By the sounds of it, you're still young, and these events are going to soon form you into a much amazing, better person in the future. My suggestions are, don't even try and spit in their direction, because facing the truth they must not care about you that much. The only people you need to care for you is yourself, and you need to be there for your baby brother and Grandma, the two that truly love and care for you. Killing yourself is not and will never be the answer! You'll miss out on so much when you finally leave your mom and her bad boyfriend. Like making new friends, having your own place, good money, and a spouse. You should most likely not let this get to you, because it's almost curtain call for the better of your life, you just gotta wait a few more acts. Stay strong! Please, for the sake of those around you.

-Dstar89

Now as bad as it is to tell this to complete strangers, it's good that you trust in them for advise. I understand how you feel, more than you would believe. It hurts in more than one ways, but you shouldn't think like that. Eventually the pain will go away. You'll find people who make everything better, and you'll forget about the things that to you. It may seem better to die and leave the pain and hurt, but you have a little brother and friends who love you. That alone is worth more than anything, and you can't give that up.

Think about why you would take your life? Do you dream of a future for yourself, you are not your mother, father or grandparents. You are an individual and anything you put your mind to you can do it. I share a great deal with you. A mom that was on drugs and eventually abandoned me, a father I didn't and crap every day. Believe I had many times I felt like you, but remember this saying. This to will past, I'm sure you have something to give or teach this world. If no one said it lately, I love you. Therapist in tears.

You still have a future ahead of you, don't throw it away. There's nothing after death, and it is not something you should try to get into. While there may be a heaven and hell, there's a chance the only thing awaiting you after death, is nothingness.
Try to do things that make you happy, and get into a hobby. I've been battling depression for awhile, and I always find that doing something I like helps. Talk to someone about this, don't bottle it all up. It's okay to cry. especially in a situation like this.
Also, don't think of your situation as the worst in the world. Yes, your situation is horrible. But honestly, it could be a lot worse. Instead of indulging in self-pity, do something to better the situation. You will never fully heal from the damage it did to you, but everyone has a few scars like that. We just deal with the scars though, and move on. There isn't going to be some prince on a white horse to save you, and death isn't a salvation. The only thing you can do, is strive to make your situation better.