sounds v philosophical but how should i go about it, i like alot of things: music, art, calisthenics, philosophy but how should i live a fulfilling life, the idea of a 9-5 till i retire scares me to no end, no disrespect to ppl who do it but the fact that i might end up like that makes me nauseous.

Don't get caught up in thinking a job or career is the key to a fulfilling life. Get a job that teaches you something useful and pay well and live for other people. Have a family, take care of your parents when they're old, and live simply. Don't take yourself too seriously