I planned my death, the only thing that prevented me was my father, my brother and besties, I couldn't leave this world doing them so much harm. I tried it several times, but at the last moment I regretted it believing that I should do it in another way, something perhaps less painful for whoever finds me, I don't know. I don't think I'll try again but the life I'm living is not life. I am sad almost all the time and there is no pleasure in the things I used to like. I want to get hit by a bus or drown while eating lunch so I can leave through no fault of my own. thanks for reading, I don't know whether to ask for help, I feel like no one cares about me
sorry for my horrible english but i'm argentinian so.... when i told my problems in another language I can pull them apart from my life.

hey man, i understand what your going through, i know everyone says that but i just want to let you know there are more people who care and you can talk to, im only 17, so you dont have to listen but i get that feeling all the time as well, i hope you get the help you deserve, because i know you can find a reason to want to live, im sure if your given the chance you can do great things.

Have you tried a hobby, it’s not my place to budge in but honestly, I use anime, I’m not like as well… um anyways hope you get into a better headspace, wish you well. Good luck, probably will never meet you but yeah