I've been doing college on and off for a while. I'm 24 doing an English degree in school. I can graduate next year when I'm 25. I thought I enjoyed it but now I'm not sure. I don't really have any work experience and I don't know if I can even get a job when I graduate. And if I can I feel like it will likely be a job that doesn't pay very well and a job I don't enjoy either. I feel so lost. I feel anxious everyday thinking about my future and I have a lot of trouble sleeping at night. I honestly think about suicide a lot, but I am the only family my brother has. Our mother is passed away and our father has been locked in an insane asylum for almost a decade. We didn't have a good relationship with either of them. I'm so afraid that if I'm gone my brother will be all alone. I really don't know what to do. I feel like I should have tried to study something else like computer science. I don't have any interest in it but at least it would pay better. I feel so far behind now. I don't know what interests me at all anymore. I feel paralyzed everyday with anxiety. Death looks more and more tempting by the passing days but I just really don't want to leave my brother and my friends like that. Am I just going to be stuck working a low paying job with an arts degree?

Don't stop to fighting! It's when you never stop to fight that the light come among darkness. Those who give up never see the light and drown in the darkness!