I seriously need to talk to someone it's hurting me...

I'm a AroAce 20 years old guy and need help. My mother each and every time I talk with her about my brother, who now has a boyfriend, she tells me she can't wait for me to found someone. The thing is, I have tried to talk to my mother about this, as I don't feel not even the minimum of attraction to others let it be romantic or sexual, I tried to tell her there are people who don't feel attraction at all, others who dont feel romantic other who dont feel sexual attraction but they can feel romantic and etc... I then when and explained that even if I'm young I have been examine myself to see if that is true, I have thought of this for a long time as I felt left out, even thinking I might have been weird or that something was wrong with me for years...Not long time ago though, maybe half a year or so, I found that there are people like me that share the same problem(if you can count it as that) and are unable to feel attraction at all.

I'm not sure at all if I'm AroAce or just Asexual, as it's a little bit difficult to know for myself and I just might be young to feel for someone (you never know) but I know for sure I dont feel any sexual attraction for the very least. The thing is, after saying this to my mother, all she said was that it was bulls*it, that I shouldn't believe everything I see on internet(my mother believes in conspiracies of China having created the covid just bc she read it online...) and that I will definitely feel it when I'm older saying I'm too young...(she had my brother with my actual age 20)

I tried to explain to her everything, I tried to open up to her, something that is not easy as she is pretty old school in some things and all she says is that it's stupid... She then gets angry and says why I want to be difficult...

I really love my mother and don't get me wrong she is a great mother except the times when we fight, times like this, mostly bc of me opening up...My mother accepts that my brother is not straight...

Does anyone know what should I do? It really hurts for her to tell me that...It's just like the time she told me to just jump out the window and kill myself bc I was having a really bad time with school and everything else...

Most people don't understand what it's like having a different sexuality. Since the majority of people want to get in relationships and such. Sometimes people just aren't like that and thar's okay. It's okay to be different don't let anyone tell you otherwise. You should be confident in what you know and that your mom just doesn't want to understand you then you should ignore her and skip the subject entirely.

Skipping the subject when it's brought into discussion would be the safest I think. Or just tell your mom that you have other priorities in the meantime and love life is not one of those. All my sisters are also being nagged by my parents when they'll marry and have kids because my parents really want some grandchildren. My sisters would always avert the topic immediately by saying "not in my plans right now", "not a priority", and "it will come if it will come".

Attraction will come if it will come. It doesn't start all of sudden, it's an accumulation of the small things. And even if it doesn't come at all, there's completely nothing wrong with being AroAce. Just because it's unusual doesn't mean it's wrong. For now, you can just play the "I have other priorities/goals in life" card with your mom if it comes into discussion and quickly change the topic.