1 Name: some guy : 2022-07-31 22:18 ID:31dJ64fT [Del]
could this be called depression? i'm not really sure. i also don't think i'm depressed. i'll go through periods of time where everything feels meaningless and like nothing has any consequence. I can do whatever, whenever, however, and I guess it makes me impulsive. I just want to feel. Or sometimes, it's more like I'm feeling too much, and I just need the noise to end, to rearrange itself into something that makes some sense. Either way, it's either too much or not enough, and I seldom feel "whole" or right. Either I'm chasing some sense that anything fucking matters, or that I matter, and it isn't all a ton of noise.
I guess I also don't feel entirely human. Like, obviously I'm human, but I don't always feel like an entire person, if that makes sense. More like fragments of a personality all woven together into one incomplete amalgamation of what an alien thought a human would be like.
That makes no fucking sense, does it?
I just don't feel like a person. I don't know what else there is to say. I think it contributes to this feeling of meaninglessness. I'm not what I should be.
I'm missing something inside, and it ruins everything.
I have felt this way for a while now. There is a quote I follow. There are only three things a human needs to live. someone to love, something to do, and something to hope for.” I have all three. And I'm sure you do too. Find someone you love, something you want to work for, and something to do. Please do.
ye i kinda have the same feeling sometime but you have to try new things that take you out of your routine even if its boring or scary, of course you may be disappointed by some but its way better than not trying
You know, I wonder, how was consciousness made. Well although not depressed I feel some just have more of a clear personality than me, most people probably can only describe me as that one talkative weird weeb whose into weird music and all, it might help to try and look for a hobby to define you
