I had an argument with my boyfriend last night. I just started summer break, why do i feel so sad when i should be going out and having fun? I miss someone aswell. There was this TA in my art class who was so funny and it made me feel so happy talking to him. He wont be at my school next year which makes me really sad. Should i be missing him more than my boyfriend? I just really like talkming to him bc Im never sad when im with him. He accepted me for who I was and didnt think i was weird. Im kinda rambling at this point but I sometimes dont see the point and being alive sometimes. Just to be sad and be in pain again. I struggling with appetite and eating in general as well. Its a struggle I go thru every fucking day. I just want to be happy and be able to eat without feeling like vomiting or feel like shit every time I eat. Im heavily malnurished, and underweight. I only weigh a mere 84 pounds, I feel my body decaying and weakening every fucking day. Im so sad, I just want to talk to someone who will make me feel happy all the time. My bf has been annoying me and i really need some space right now.

I can barely eat 1000 calories a day and I have stayed at the same weight for years now. Im skinny and scrawny and Im weak, yet i wish to be strong. Is there anyone out there who can relate? Please? I want to cry so much right now.

Patrick, if your out there I would like to talk to you

My friend, don’t fret too much. While it sucks not wanting to live, I’ve found it helps to think of how the world would be without one thing, like farms, or if the ice age lasted longer? Anyways, I can see how you feel, and while I’m not Patrick, I’m someone who will care