Hi. So to start off I just ended a 2 year friendship with someone that knew everything about me. He started talking to me so much I couldn't handle it, and I started to lash out at him because he kept on pressuring me by saying "why are you leaving me on delivered all the time?" And I would calmly try to explain why I was like this. But he kept on doing it and I simply grew tired. And when I got tired I got mean. I was trying to push him away and I succeeded. He did something to hurt me in the end, and i did something to hurt him. We haven't talked for a week but we talked today. He was cold but then again, so was I. He kept on trying to guilt trip me but this time I'm letting it slide. He can be so lovely and caring but Jesus it felt so much at times and I couldn't handle it, and I expressed that to him but still it was so terrible. One part of me wants to try and salvage it, but he says he's so much happier and relaxed without me and I'm glad. I'm glad. But still for some reason it hurts?? I usually am not sentimental and I don't put to much thought into this, but now it's bothering me a ton. I feel bad and I've expressed that but he doesn't give a shit, and I think he wants me to beg. He is being petty right now, he wants me to feel as he felt I think. But I had good reasons that I can't explain all in this thread for doing the things I've done but he simply did not care. He just wanted someone witness him in his despair, and I did not have time for that. He says he won't talk to me unless I talk to him and honestly it's so awkward it's painful but I want to have what we once did.he was one of the only people I could talk to bc he knew my situation (I get my phone checked, ergo why I am using this site). And it was so much easier to talk to him because he knew about that. I really don't have anyone else to talk to or text but god it's getting lonely keeping this all to myself. I can't wait till I get to college and make a lot of friends who I can talk to whenever I can, and who I don't have to push away. Does anyone have any advice?