idk this may sound attention seeking but i just wanted to vent over something stupid which shouldn't bother me as much as it does.

so like, my friends & i did this "most likely to..." survey and one of the categories was "most likely to become a yandere" & surprise, surprise: i got voted that the most.

now i know that it's fucking stupid to be upset about it, it's just a damn joke, but it brought up bitter memories that im embarrassed about. quick summary: my ex & i had a bad breakup back when we were 15 after he accused me of cheating and i self-harmed for his attention and tried to get the girl he was talking to to cancel their dates & stuff so he would take me back. obviously it did not work lol.

anyway, back to the vent. i didn't expect it to upset me this much, i guess it's because i haven't thought about it for a while so it all just came back hitting me in the face; knowing that everyone around me is aware of the past.

i also told my friends about this & they just kind of,,,played it off. maybe i shouldn't be as hurt & upset as i am.