1 Name: Anonymous : 2021-11-14 21:39 ID:gk3pcZlI [Del]
I recently turned 20 and I am still a loser. I mean, that is subjective, but my context is: being average at best in school, broke, little to no social/love life and living with a toxic family in a relatively small house.
I have plans on moving out, of course, I just have to graduate first. Also here, I have to serve the military for about 2 years, then I can continue my studies or work. I plan to work right away and provide for myself. If things go well, I even have a business vision, and keen to succeed.
Bla, bla, bla... Point is, I am optimistic about the future and I think I can change my life. BUT, my mental and physical health right now is totally fucked. Which worries me. If I cannot be well in the present, will I be well in the future? Is it all just a delusion? Now, I am paranoid and anxious. Not sure if I have depression, but I do not even want to make my life harder, by needing to pay for fucking depression pills.
I really don't know... I am just a mess. I wish I could be better now. A better family too. Like... I know some things cannot be changed. And ultimately I have the most control in my own life. But damn, it is difficult, to overcome all of it.
I am not even sure why I am writing this. Am I expecting sympathy? Advice? Not sure. I just... want to be better and have a better life.
Thank you for reading stranger.
2 Name: C : 2021-11-16 23:21 ID:sU8d90q+ [Del]
Hello! Just came here to say that 20 years old is still really young so don't worry if you're life isn't "perfect" yet. I mean, I'm 20 years old too and most of the time I've no clue what I'm doing. However, I'm glad to hear that you're staying optimistic, that's good. Seems to me like toxic family/home life is always the worst, it's very draining... I think you should def start making your physical and mental health a priority. But, I can see how that be difficult considering your situation. To be honest I suck at giving advice but I'm positive things will work out for you, try not to stress too much. (:
3 Name: Anonymous : 2021-11-26 06:44 ID:ASpPFGB7 [Del]
Thank you for the reply C! You are right. The priority is my health, regardless of my toxic family and other things. I appreciate the positivity and I will try not to stress too much :)
To other 20 year olds (or whatever age lol), believe that you will be better and life gets better when you do!
