There's absolutely no need to respond to this. Honestly if anyone just reads it I think I'll get by.
I think I have a guilt complex and I'm just feeling turmoil about me not doing enough. I won't elaborate since I'm not looking for advice or anything. Just feels bad and I don't really have anyone I can tell it too. I really just wanna let it out. The feeling will pass and I'll be fine in a while.
I don't want to keep thinking about what more I could have done or how I could have been better. Logically, I know I did my best with the situation and I should be good now but the "what ifs" are going to eat at me a little longer. If I had to describe it,I guess I want to punch walls until something gives, but I won't because that just leaves something broken that needs to get fixed.
If you persevered and read till the end, thank you thank you thank you. This was actially a lot longer but wasn't very coherent. Anyways, hope you have a great day :)

i know your not looking for advice and im not going to give. you any because i go through the same thing. honestly the guilt sometimes just eats away at me. like things that arent even my fault make me feel like sh*t