im no longer an overthinker. i understand that i just have to live my life. but i realised how shitty my life is. i somewhat have a plan to make it better, but im really unhappy right now, maybe im being impatient? i know things will get better (probably) in the next few years. i guess the plan can go on, but i have to make some changes in my daily life right now? its difficult though. especially when youre not happy with the environment youre in (and cant change it easily or fast). but thats life i guess.

lol sorry for the rant, just needed to write whats in my head, to the internet.

I feel your pain, waiting for the opportunities to come because its in other people's hands or you need to build up resources is frustrating, as i'm in the same boat. don't give up though, i may not believe in myself but i believe in you :(

well, i believe in you too, so we are equal. all the best to us!