So, I started highschool. And i sat and sitting next to a kid who reminds me of two boys I liked and did'nt say anything because i was to shy. I don't know if i need to move on, but there is like this feeling all sticky and warm i feel around him, and i don't know if its love or whatever not to sound cliche. But i would like to get to know him. I feel like crying and i don't know why but i just have a feeling of longing. I think about him constantly and i don't want to be a stalker. Things are okay at home, but i constantly hate or have a strong feeling of dislike with my mother. I don't have many friends, and I can't tell the difference between liking someone as a friend, and like-likeing someone. I feel happy when he smiles, and feel strange when he sits next to me. my stomach hurts. he didn't sit next to me in class and i felt really sad. I wondered if I did something wrong. (I hope not). please give me some advice?

Any advice??

Random boy (lets call him Mark) coincidentally resembling a person you once liked romantically. You feel attached and gravitated towards Mark because? I mean there must be something? Remember the humor with the boys always confusing plain kindness and romantic concern from a random act of kindness from a girl you might be along those lines. I can only speculate for not knowing the whole story, please understand that my opinion/speculation do not mean any harm or offense.

There must be something why you feel attached and gravitated towards him that doesn't necessarily correlate to romantic feeling or love. Advice? I am not really sure what you want to do considering your disposition but before we conclude it is romantic affection ask first why? Why do you feel gravitated towards him? Why are you sad if he's not around etc.

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I got a soft spot for my brother-in-arms GF, and we tend to be at times to be close, too close for just friends and considering he is my bro-in-arms GF. I can confirm it is not any romantic feelings or relation but I think the reason why I feel gravitated towards her despite our disposition is that she is cheerful, jolly, as if all the burden I carry everyday in my "challenging" life fades away. She's just like a beacon of hope that calms anxious and restless soul. Not to sound cheesy but similar idea goes with class clowns, they just make your day a bit better despite the storm.

E45, Thanks. You have no offended me or anything, so don't worry. I think the reason I feel warm whenever I am around him is because He reminds me of those two boys. One of them I felt an incredible ammount of lust towards, the other I just felt happy when I was around him. whenever he wanted to hang out I would think, YES finally. something happy on this strange sucky day. I think the sistuation you explained was almost identical, but did you feel lust, or love? I am not really sure what that feels like. I am also not sure why, but I keep having reapearing dreams of one of the boys, (well call him Micah). Its hard, and he always acts like some high-horse dick towards me, but those dreams always have a half side to them. IN that half side, he loves me, or at least understands what I am going through. I feel so sick whenever I am around Micah in my dreams. But I do not want it to go away. Sometimes I don't eat or sleep for days on end thinking and trying to conjur up that feeling of nostalgia and undenyable happiness. Its so hard to leave from that. Thank you. I explained this (not to sound abrupt) so do you have anything else? Where might you infer that feeling comes from?

I would really apreciate if someone felt like this (not that I am wishing this on anyone) and said something. idk. Any more advice?

since you just started high school i´m gonna assume you`re a bit younger than me!! i´m transgender and started hormone therapy a few months ago and have been experiencing very similar things. like very strong, confusing emotions. i think it might just be puberty? it´s basically my second time going through puberty and i can say that I´ve had veeery, very similar experiences in the past few months, due to my hormonal changes.

this might not be helpful at all, but just know that you´re not alone and whatever you feel is very valid <33

Yeah, thanks. It might be puberty, but this happened to me when I was 10, except the only thing was that I felt that warm sticky feeling when I was 10, and 11, except mabye it grew over time, like consuming. Idk. But the question remains, what should I do?

Also, good luck with the hormone therapy mallo. I've heard It can be different for some people and harder for others. That unpredictability must be difficult. I can't imagine going through puberty twice.

hmmm... did I feel romantic towards my friend's GF? No, but she became more like a little sister, a closer relation than plain friend but no, no romantic feelings. And yeah, that's so... sounds youthful lmao