Hello Dollars comrades! (just kidding hi guys)
Well Idk what's happening with one of my friends, let's call her M (because her name starts with an M XD). Well, since last year I've been in the same class as M and even though before we were in the same class I knew her and liked her it wasn't anything special, she was more like an acquaintance. But when we ended up in the same class, we got closer and I considered her as a good friend. However there were some times where she would say things that Idk were odd and would let me kind of angry, why is that, I have no idea.
This year, well, covid is still here and in the end of january, we all went home again (yay...). And a lot of assignments are given. Sometimes, it's a group work, another time not, well mostly I would stay with her. She's smart, I'm start (lol sorry if i'm assuming I'm smart) so it was a good duo. But, for the last few times it has become boring, like I'm not in the mood of doing it with her, or even with anyone else (I'm an antisocial sometimes), so in the last science assignment, I told her "M, sorry but I'm not in the mood of doing this assignment in group" and she didn't answer me.
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I was kind of shocked like Ik I never asked her to answer me but I was at least expecting something like "It's ok, no problem". But then I thought, "You're overthinking she probably had a lot of stuff to do and didn't have time to answer it". Ok.
Second scenario, our history/geography teacher loves to make us do like Idk how to call it but it's like an essay, but it has to do with a specific topic (I'm really sorry I have no idea of how we call it in english). Anyways, for an essay in general you need a structure with arguments and lot of that, right? And, like what he's been doing is giving us a lot of documents and a main question that we need to answer. I hope you're getting what I mean, but it's important, you'll see. Well, that teacher allows us to do pair work so I would stick with M bcs she's a good friend and as always the smart and smart thing. But, I'm not sure if it's bcs of me, bcs I tend to be a little impatient and don't like to waste time but I'm always the one who makes the outline of the essay, the one who finds the arguments that will answer to the question. Normally M only helps me with the writing part bcs when I write I tend to be sometimes incomprehensible, so she helps me with vocabulary etc etc...
At the same time, that teacher makes us do oral presentations of those essays, normally they're short since we're supposed to only find the arguments with the docs that are given, we have 5 mn. And, one day my friend M presented our essay, and the teacher gave her an 18/20. I was super happy for her and she was happy as well.
Time to my dramatic presentation, I wanted really badly to present last monday, I was really confident with our essay but then I talked super fast, according to literally everyone, who suddenly wanted to turn on their mics, I was too fast and ended up with a 14/20. Weeeeeell, I was upset really upset, I had worked on that and I got a 14, of course there was the speaking part and maybe my essay wasn't that good but it still upset me and what upset me the most. And here it comes, is the fact that the two essays were basically made by me, I was the one who found the arguments the most important part and yet she got an 18. Yes, I was/am jealous of her grade, yes I know she performed better than I did but still the props were mainly mine in those two essays and yet, I was the one with the worst grade. Yes, if I had performed for the geography essay it could have happened the same still, I'm jealous of her grade. Especially because I'm always comparing myself to others about grades. So, my bad I think, I'm supposed to be happy for her whether I made mostly of it or not but stilllllllllll......
Anyways, I told you it was a long story, this Thursday our teacher gave us new documents and a new essay to do, M asked me if I wanted to do with her I told her no. Two reasons: I want to be more independent about the vocabulary thing, in a real test I won't have her help and second reason that I think was the real one... I didn't really want to do it with her to not happen the same thing, she getting a grade that I was mainly responsible for. And I told her the first reason and she didn't answer me AGAIN. Now I was intrigued. A first time ok, a second ? Mmmm. I told her to make sure "I hope you're not mad". She didn't answer. I told her "Ig you really are". She didn't answer. I told her "Look M you need to tell me something, like I really want to be more independent of you". She didn't answer me. And Ik that she knows what I've been writing bcs I share an whatsapp group with her and she said something about a school challenge or whatever, and I was like ok I can participate but you are mad at me aren't you? And she didn't answer me.
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Well, now I'm kinda upset about this, if she's mad why is she ignoring me and then with trivial stuff like this stupid challenge she talks with me. Like I want to solve this, I don't want to let it pass like it doesn't matter. Because it does. I'm interpretating this as if she's mad that I'm not doing some assignments with her, like I think I have no obligation to it with her, right?
Help me, what's going on, I don't want to leave it here.

BIG UPDATE:
M has answered me but she is getting it all wrong. She said that she didn't answer me bcs the last few days hadn't been the best and that she didn't want to start an argument with me. Guess I was overreacting after all...
But she thinks that I don't like to work with her anymore but it's not like that! Apparently, she loves to work with me and that's when she's 100% focus besides our new friendship is really important to her, one of the best things that happened in the last two years she said... But she says that she feels that we're talking less and that the quarantine isn't helping. But I never knew that she felt like that, my bestie and I we can stay like two weeks with barely talking to each other and we're fine with it, we're still as close as we've always been.
She said that she didn't know whether I was angry or not but that she would support me whatever decision I should make. I asked her time to think about this, bcs the truth is, I have no idea if I'm upset with her, like right now with what she just told me, I feel that I was the bad guy this whole time... I really don't know what's happening, is it my stress or what??