1 Name: suzaku : 2021-02-17 23:32 ID:pHInUq02 [Del]
Why can't I be more outgoing or more entertaining?
I hate it. I hate myself for being so insecure. I don't understand.
I love talking with others and expressing my opinions, but my physical body and outward appearance says otherwise. It has always been like this. I've always tried to be more out there but negative feelings come rushing in. "You'll just make a fool of yourself." or "No one cares about your pathetic life!" and etc. I just do not understand.
I get jealous seeing others hang out. I only have a few friends and most of them think I'm "shy" and maybe boring. I think to myself, "It's not fair, why can't they talk to me?" I'd love to have a conversation with them but I'm labeled as the quiet and unappealing person.
I often feel alone. But I'm sure that there are many of you that feel the same as me.
I hoping that some understand and can offer some-sort of advice. (Of course you are not obligated to.)
Thank you for at least reading my story. x
2 Name: Channie : 2021-02-22 20:26 ID:viVdMJ7W [Del]
I feel the same way as what you feel. I encourage you to open up a little like talking for a moment pr something. Lemme tell you my story, I also have few close friends but i do my best to interact with my classmates like talking for a moment and if someone shares an interest with me, i talk to him/her like normal. We know it's difficult to take a first step right? But that's what we should do. We need to try. We dont want to be left out right? That we have to be outgoing even though it feels like youre not you anymore. But based on my experienced, im also shy at first but i need to communicate with others aside from my close friends so that nobody will taking advantage of me. You know, sometimes being a shy person, some will take advantage of you like asking favors that you cant say no to it. I felt that so thats why i need to interact with others. We have different personalities but we have to explore what type of person s/he is so that we can be fully aware of our surroundings if s/he is a threat to you or a good person to you. I dunno if youre in college or a highschooler right now but if youre a highschooler, you need to communicate with others because in when youre in college, you will meet diff types of peopleand you dont know if h/she is worthy to be your friend or not.
P.s sorry for my bad english. I hope this reaches you :)
