So, im 14, gay and lonley. This sucks, but im not sure i want to have a relashonship. Not to sound melodramatic, but its jsut mabye not for me? I dunno. There used to be this kid i liked, but after we did some stuff together, he called me a faggot. it hurt, but when he came over to apologize, i turned him down. Now i regret it. Everybody does stupid stuff, and especially because i know he said that to me in front of this kid he was trying to impress. He was handsom, nice to me, and gave me something to live for. Now he's gone, and i feel so sad. I wish I would have given it a thought and knew how i felt. Sigh. Advice? the worst part is when i tried to text him on Xbox, i got no reply. Mabye he blocked me? the more i talk about it, the more it hurts.

It sounded like you've hit rock bottom and when that happens, the only way is up. It might stain your dignity a bit, but if your friendship with him is more valuable than your own ego, what damage would apologizing to him cause? At best, you'd be able to sleep soundly at night.

I'm not sure how to tackle the relationship problem beyond that, but if you can smooth it out between the of you for now, the situation won't be as grim as today right?

Thank you everyone. The Dollars really does help.