Well, a lot happened to me until I reached a point where I no longer knew myself You became a different person than you were Sometimes I get angry without me at the same time At some point the average person has to get angry I do not feel any thing Even in sad moments, I do not be sad or cry I just look and do nothing Also, in happy moments, I don't feel anything I can no longer find pleasure in anything Previously, I watched anime a lot, as if I was addicted to it But now I don't enjoy anything, not even in sports and the study You could say that I have gotten cold or on my way to be Really, I don't know myself anymore

People change, and you just got older.
Also, the covid19 crisis could have prevented you from seeing friends, having discussions, and finding new topics of interest.

It's your time to redefine what you want in life, what is your long term goal, and what is your next steps.

Try to call family and friends who are important to you. And think about what you want to become and to do.

Did you know that I do not have parents and I do not have a person in my life and I do not care about anyone? Except for myself, I also see people as nothing but tools and idiots who live like cattle How can I go back as I was before while living in a world that still works with jungle law?The strong eat the weak

There are always people you can befriend. Not anyone follows that logic.
Go to a club, ask online friends,...

And you can't just go back to your previous state. You need to accept that you've learned/understood new things, and move on.
The world itself has changed, and everyone has changed, especially with confinements.

Begin by being more considerate about the average bloke, accept that you're no better than most people but have a different mindset.

But try to meet people !!!

I think you are a very positive person so you cannot understand what Think about it

look at nice things even if you dont feel like it, Koji! It will trick your mind and release good feeling hormones. Eat something yummy, do something youve alwaysd kinda wanted to do even if its silly.

Report your findings on these attempts! tiny progress is still progreeeeeeeeeeess

Here I came back after a week and tried to do what you told me, but no one is finding any results after all this hardship I still feel nothing and am not enjoying anything that I cannot even possibly exist Even my family surrounded me and I continued to regret everything about my mother's death As for the death of my father, it does not matter to me at all, even though he died dead The important thing is that I do not hate or love anyone, and do you know that even the feeling of pain?I am on my way to forget him, I want to get out of this boring, ordinary life. I think then I will feel the pleasure And I announce by hiding this IQ, I don’t want anyone to know that my IQ It exceeds two hundred

>>7 Can't you like just try literally anything. If you got any fears, you can try facing them or something. If you can get a vr or something, I think it is pretty fun since it's not sitting around all day doing nothing. Maybe challenge your mind since you apparently have a high IQ. I don't know if you're lying about the IQ thing, and it seems like you are with the way you write, but might as well put something in there for you. Honestly, this took me a minute to write so obviously it won't be super helpful but whatever.

>>7 Also, since you supposedly have a high IQ can't you figure it out yourself by studying the brain or something? You likely don't even have one high enough though. Sounds like you're just trying to flex on people or something, saying I hope nobody knows that it exceeds 200 when you're literally telling everyone that.

I don't care at all if any of my acquaintances know about my IQ, but here we are just strangers so if you are trying to understand my feelings And to help me, I have to tell you the main reasons why I'm feeling

Hmm, damn I don't know how to do the reply things.

Anyway, firstly, it seems you are having a general dampening of feelings. Your best bet would be to scare yourself or throw yourself into uncomfortable situations but these may only give you temporary respite. You should go get a therapist, I don't think anyone here has qualifications to treat you and treating someone through chat is hard for qualified professionals anyway.
The fact you are on here and asking for help in the first place means you are willing to stop this and do not want to stay like this so I'd like to believe you would be better off with a therapist.

Finally, I just wanna say that no matter how much you've changed, no matter how much you've grown, you are still you.

Well, I decided to stay on these feelings and take advantage of this smashing IQ You make me see and understand things that I absolutely do not want to understand For this miserable world, I will become the hunter, or if it is true,I will be in control. Thank you for your valuable time and good understanding