I have a crush(we will call him Mark), but i get too nervous to even try and initiate a conversation. Why? because i feel like he hates me, which is irrational because deep down I know he doesn't but everytime i think i say something weird or do something weird i feel like he thinks im a loser and hates the way i act. I dont know why i feel like this, hes is such a nice guy and doesn't say anything that would make me think he is mean and rude. But I dont know why I think this. Maybe because of my previous crushes? Like for example, in middle school i used to have a crush on this guy for about 7-8 months. He was very blunt, maybe a bit rude at times but I didnt care because I "loved" him or whatever i thought. He would tell me things like, "dont do that, it makes u look stupid", "you need to stop being clingy, no one likes clingy people", and to be honest i believed it all and I changed just for him, so he could like me back. I wanted him to like me but he never did. Of course I am completley over him now, but me liking him changed me a lot. I just think this is related to my current problem of thinking my crush hates me. I dont know but its the closest connection i have. I want advice from you guys but theres a lot of things I've already heard like, "do what you want, dont do things for other people so they can like u". I don't do things just to please other people now. I'll do whatever I want and not because other people want it, but because I like it. Any advice for me? What should I do about my current problem?

The first thing you have to do is be yourself, if someone doesn't like you as you are, it's not worth it. The second thing is to talk to your crush, from what you speak, he does not seem a bad person and I do not think he has negative thoughts towards you. Do not be afraid. Talk to him little by little about things you have in common and you will see how little by little you will forge a friendship.

Hey, Xara. It sounds like you've dealt with some nasty pricks in the past. It also sounds like they've messed with your head a bit. I dealt with some nasty pricks, too. Really nasty ones. What helped me, in all seriousness, is figuring out who I am and accepting myself for it. I love myself and who I am, even though those assholes wanted me to hate myself. If you accept who you are and learn to love yourself, you'll be much less concerned about what Mark thinks of you. Because, at the end of the day, you are who you are, and if Mark doesn't like that, he isn't worth the stress.

Hey Xara, like everyone else said before me , you've got to learn to accept yourself , and it's definitely not an easy journey. For someone who used to be constantly told by "friends " that I was really clingy, I can definitely see where you're coming from.
For me it took moving away from home to get my own confidence again and realize that people don't actually judge that harshly as you expect them to. Of course I'm still a little haunted by the experience and I will have my off days but I find that by pursuing my hobbies and hanging out with friends who are more positive and loving, I've come to better accept myself for who I am.
But in the meantime , I would recommend trying to talk to him and see if you both get along !