I don’t really no were to start since I normally don’t do this kind of thing because it’s hard for me to open up to people I don’t know but I’ve never been good at anything in my life, I mean yes I try to get good grades and I try my best to be a good daughter and girlfriend but I just feel like I’m failing everyone including myself. When I look in the mirror I all I see is a waste of space and I tend to blame myself for being the way I am. Maybe something is wrong with me, maybe I have bad luck. Maybe god hates me and I’ll never be good enough for anything, I don’t know what else to do, I don’t know what else to say. I’m sorry if this dragged on. Im not looking for pity I just needed to vent before I did something rash.

i feel the exact same way. Sure i’ve been through a lot of trauma, but at the end of the day I don’t have a bad life. So then why is it I feel like nothing. I feel lost. I have no clue who I am. I see myself as nothing. I don’t connect with my life. I understand exactly what you’re feeling. Like you’re just living a life you don’t even understand? talk to me i’ll listen.

I used to feel this way as well, and still do sometimes. The best thing I can tell you is what helped me the most; tell somebody about how you're feeling. While this post is a good first step, you should tell the people you trust most about these thoughts. That way you have an actual outlet for these bottled up emotions and thoughts and someone to confide in. Then you and whomever you tell can work to figure out the best way to deal with them. Doing so helped me significantly. I hope it can for you, or that you find a different way to work through it. People want to help you, I can assure you of that, but you have to ask for it.

I hope this helps in some way.