1 Name: Lifewithregrets : 2020-08-09 01:25 ID:6yfz3wGZ [Del]
I was reading through my past letters and diary entry, and i remembered and realized somethings about myself.
My ex was depressed and i did not do anything about it. She would write me letters telling me she was depressed and felt bad but had to be strong. I dont ever remember me reacting or helping her with it. I just feel really bad right now. I could have done better, i could have done so much more. But i was too immature to do anything. She is doing better now, whether its because someone helped her or she figured it out herself. Im happy that she is happy and really regretful that i wasn’t the one to help, if i did even a little i would feel better. I vow to never ignore these signs again, because not everyone can be as strong as my ex and push through.
I realized my first real love may have wanted to come back to me. After we broke up, she gave me mixed signals of wanting me back, but i was way too prideful to see it. And i regret it to this day. I wish i had her back. She was truly the one that got away...but i do have someone else i am willing to spend my life with. But i can never truly forget about my first love. Is this wrong? Honestly, i just want closure of some sort. She was just everything that i wanted, but things changed now, and i know we won’t be a good fit. But that desire to just try to see if its possible never goes away. I don’t want this to continue...
If you ever get the chance, read over your past life and decisions! I’m sure it’ll help you grow and realize a lot more things when you are more mature and understand more.
Best,
W
