1 Name: winter : 2020-05-19 02:04 ID:zirg9NrM [Del]
Hello everyone, hope that you all are somehow coping and staying safe wherever you are.
Been going through some rough times during this current period, although I still have my job, my family is still doing relatively fine, I'm currently holed up at home due to work from home but even so I feel like my current mental state has been a mess.
I've been finding it harder to be motivated to do things or just finding autonomy to start on things even though I know there's a list of things that I wrote down and know that I have to do. But personally I feel that this stems from a deeper issue which would be my work.
Everyday I'm constantly anxious and stressed about something (usually work related), I constantly have it on my mind but yet physically I'm not really doing anything about it. Feels as if part of me has just given up and stop giving any damns.
This might probably have something to do with my anxiety issue (been diagnosed before but have only went through CBT in the past) and I'm honestly struggling to cope with the current situation.
Sure I could approach my co-workers to ask for help but I feel like I'm being a bother and also that I've made so many mistakes to this point that I'm already doubting if I'm actually good at this job and why are people finding it okay to hand all these tasks to me if I've been making nothing but mistakes so far?
I feel like there's no progression, now I'm easily stressed over seemingly the littlest things and walking on eggshells everyday. I've also been keeping a sort of rant diary where I can get my current thoughts out if I wanted to.
I get that all these thoughts are definitely detrimental to the mental state but it's been getting difficult to change. I initially thought that things were getting better but now things are just spiraling downwards just as quick.
Just thought that I needed to get these thoughts out, thanks for listening.
