first of all... English is not my native language soo... I'm pretty bad at this sorry
I'm actually living in a university residence, and i share the dorm with this girl... I don't consider my self shy it's just that I'm a bit reserved? well I love my friends but i also need beeing alone, and I'm, not a touch person so hugs and that kind of afection ive never been into it. But when i started university and moved out, far from home. All i knew was gone. And what i knew about me started trembling, new city, new friends, new life... so i decided to open my self more to the people, and I started to feel things that i never felt for my roonmate, feelings that i ignored and confused. Suddenly, after christmas she confesed to this guy and they started dating, wich happened right in front of my eyes one night at the dorm. I was completly debastated, but i didnt knew why, why that afected me so much. From that point on, they started hanging too often at the room, chatting and kissing, talking about private stuff wile i was there, feeling miserable as if I didn't exist, as if what I felt was a joke. I loved her, and i hated her.. so bad. Every night triying to sleep hearing their lips and whispers and everything... I just wanted to shout. Why they are doing this to me? this is so painful.
Well I'm just a coward, everybody tells me that i should just talk to them, tell them how I feel, but i can't i dunno why but i cant .
This makes my cuestion my own feelings, and the truth of them, r they valid enough... i dunno. I just dont like this, but I just try to disappear every time he appears. don't know what to do. just wanted to take it out. kind of

Hello,

My advice to you, from a total stranger is not to talk to them because they may only make things hurt more than they already do. Instead I would recommend to seek help or take up a hobby in order to remove some of the extra emotion you feel. Most importantly I would recommend requesting a new dorm or a new roommate at the very least. It may be painful too at first, but it's better to remove yourself away from anything that is causing you harm, if it isn't something that you can't fight. and you cannot fight the feelings of another person.