I met my best friend in kindergarten. We weren't that close back then. We didn't talk much but I didn't mind. Then we both entered elementary school and I got bullied. Our relationship was still the same. But in second grade he was nicer to me. He'd sometimes talk to me and stuff. In third grade we became best friends. We would hang out after school but he was friends with my bullies too. Then he'd talk less and less to me until fourth grade. We started texting eachother and stoped talking in school. I didn't really question it at that time, I was just glad to have a friend. However the bullying got worse and my mom decided to homeschool me when I was 14. Then one evening I was on a walk alone. I was listening to music and didn't pay much attention when I got grabbed by my arms. One of my bullies was holding my left arm, another one my right arm and one was standing in front of me holding a knife. I kicked around myself and ended up hitting the bully in front of me. He got angry and wanted to cut my eyes. I turned my head in time so that I only got a scar on my cheek. Thankfully a man came and yelled from the other side of the street. The bullies ran away and so did I. I haven't told my best friend about this. Yet. My parents decided that it's best if we moved to another country and so we did. We moved from Switzerland to Germany two months ago. My best friend still texted me the first week. I thought that I should tell him about the 'accident' and so I did. He acted compleatly suprised and kept denying that they'd ever do something like that, even when he saw the scar. He got mad at me and called me a liar but apologized one hour later. The next day I texted him again but he left me on read. I tried the next day again but he ignored me again. I gave up but still hoped that he would write me again. Then today he wrote me again. I got excided and immediatly wrote him back. Turns out that the bullies told lies about me in my old school and even took some photos of me while I at home (back in Switzerland). They found out that I often crossdress and told the whole school and showed pictures of me in girls clothing. Everyone hated me more than before, even my best friend. He said that it was disgusting and that boys should do such a thing. He even said that he's glad that he doesn't see me anymore because he wouldn't be able to look me in the face anymore. I blocked him afterwards and deleted his number. I felt so relieved yet so dissapointed in myself. How did I believe such an obvious lie? I'm just so glad that I don't live there anymore but I'm scared that something like this happens again.

It’s okay to be afraid... you’ve been put through something that obviously really hurt you. I hope you can get thought it & realize that not everyone is wanting to hurt you in this world. You’ve had to experience the bad & hopefully soon you’ll be faced with all the good (: But of course it’s still a fact that there will always be people that want to hurt you. Sadly that’s just reality we must accept. Just stay true to yourself, you might still fall at times but make sure you always get back up.

keep strong dude!
everyone unique as they own
there are still many good people out there!!<3

You've been through a lot. Just know that you didn't deserve to be treated cruelly.You've done nothing wrong.The sad truth is that there are some people out there who are cruel & will try to bring you down,but you are stronger.You don't feel the need to bully others like they do & that's because they're weak,while you are strong.When you feel scared just remember that. Don't be afraid. You got this