The moments where I feel like I'm actually existing properly are getting less and less frequent, and it's a lot harder to convince myself that anything that I do actually holds any value. It's a lot easier to get myself to believe that this existence is some sort of lucid dream that has no consequences no matter what I do, but even believing that holds no satisfaction. How do you cope with everything, even if you don't have a dream of some sort that you can hold onto that would make everything seem worthwhile?

I was there. I don't really know if I got over it for real or not, but stopped thinking about my actions' consequences whatsoever. I'm just hanging here, doing things, no thoughts really. Like just, wait and see what's gonna happen in life. Is it real or not? I don't care anymore? I'm in it already. About the values of what you do, it's ok, no values it's ok.