I've been having a few restless nights now and then. This is all due to someone being on my mind. She's someone who I hold very dear, someone I'd give the world for. We used to be together a while ago, but we had to split because of family issues and not being comfortable in a relationship at the time. After that, we had distanced a little, and tried dating other people, but to no avail for the either of us. Long story short, she had to move downstate a little, and after her last relationship, she doesn't want to date anyone for a while. I'm not looking to date at the moment either because I want to get my life straightened out, but the thought of her continues to be with me every day. I've thought long and hard about how I feel, and I know without a doubt that I love this woman. It's not for the way she looks or the way she dresses, I love her because for, well, herself. She's so strong in many ways, so caring of everyone, and she's someone that I look up to. I can't imagine a world without her, and I want to be a part of her life. I can't help myself feeling this way, and I wish I knew what to do. I don't know if I should tell her, if I should just force myself to move on, or whatever else. She's one of my best friends, and I don't want to lose the friendship that we have together, but I also don't want to lose her. I see so much in her that's just so beautiful, and I so badly want to head straight to her and tell her all these things. But I'm scared. What can I even do? What should I do?

maybe just try to casually get close to her again? you said you don't really look for a relationship rn so I guess that'd be alright. and after some time you can figure out how it should continue and how she reacts. I'm rooting for you and wish you the best!