1 Name: Hunter : 2019-11-07 14:29 ID:vU1/wgUu [Del]
I'm tired of failing others standards and by extension making people disappointed. I fell pain sometimes, other times I'm too cold to tell, and in the moments where it matters to another I act like myself and that worries people. It's really hurting me, for a little context my girlfriend openly expresses that she only likes me because I'm not a part of her life. She goes to a different school and she always doubts what I say because she's so used to being lied to and betrayed. I go to a relatively advanced school in the way of academic achievement and I am a sophomore taking US History, Trig, Buisness Math, an Apologetics based class, etc... It really hard to keep up with everything and nearly every week there is two or three projects with Tests and Quizzes and Summaries of antiquated world doctrines. My mom worries about me being to tired and both her and my dad are putting some more on me with ALECS assessment-which is helpful-but a lot to do. I'm doing it because I'm not as inclined as the people around me and I have been doing worse on my Trig class. I dunno what to say, I'm just hurting, and I'm trying to make my girlfriend happy and joyful and content but she really doesn't love me-which confuses me because I can't understand the value of what she says and why she is even hanging out with me. I'm just sorry for not being good enough, I'm really trying hard. I need a hug or something resembling honest friendship. maybe I'm jsut crazy
