So almost a year ago now I started dating this boy and he was all sweet and romantic and stuff.
Before me he had only one girlfriend but nothing serious, the girl was a slut basically. That was years before me.
At the beginning I would just accept that he is not that experienced with relationships and let the small mistakes slide.
June, we had a huge arguement however and it almost ended the relationship, but after I chased him and fought for him to actually take me seriously we got it right (basically I was angry since he spent all his time with his friends and didn't even bother to text me. His best friend's girlfriend became a close friend of mine & I found out he had been cheating on her so I kinda dodged being together with that dude). The thing is, he told twisted stories to these friends (including the cheating one), they ended up calling me a bitch and laughing about me behind my back and I told my boyfriend I do not want to be involved with such a group unless I won't feel like I am left out. That was in June, and guess what. He still didn't tell his friends the truth nor arranged a "meeting" so I could fit into his group again.
In August, before University started we agreed that we would spend a week together (from Monday to Sunday) and at the train station his cheating friend called him, asking him to go to his place on Friday and he said yes with me right next to him, even if we agreed to spend the whole week together.
That alone seems like it is enough, but two weeks before we went to theater and I was wearing high heels & on our way back I asked him if he wanted to take the bus or walk (like a 10-min-walk, but still not good with high heels) and later on he kept saying I decided to walk. In high heels. And he kept arguing with me on the whole way back.
Few days later he still argued with me about that 10-minute-walk and I had enough & went out with a friend to eat (we live together with my boyfriend) and the second I left the student hostel/dorm we live in he called his cheating friend and went to his place, as if I never let him go there or I don't know. A few hours later I went back 'home' & told him I was back. He just showed up minutes later, took his laptop and left, telling me he was sleeping there too.
I had a breakdown, I was sitting on the floor for hours crying & I even harmed myself to cope with the sadness.
At around 9-10 at night I couldn't bear it any longer and decided to go for a walk. Honestly I was kind of hoping something would happen to me. I had no direction or anything, but I ended up walking up to the house his friend lived in (like an hour walk). I texted him I was outside if he wanted to talk & he only sad 'you left me'.
We managed to talk about that since but it still hurts, especially because of that friend. Ever since June we can't go out with the same group because that dude said stuff about me & my own boyfriend didn't even protect me. I am trying to introduce him to my group of friends but I mostly hang around with boys, and no matter what he gets jealous. I can't even wear prettier clothes (not talking about revealing just generally pretty clothes) without him pointing it out. He got jealous at a boy just because he is my groupmate at university.
I cannot move from the room we live in, and neither can he until June I guess, so breakup is the worst solution, but I need help how I can handle this without murdering him.

You should tell him about your mental mood about how u are depressed and tired of him

Hey, I'm not an expert when it comes to romance but I can clearly tell that your relationship is toxic. Sorry not sorry. It's the truth. I think you need to be more selfish. Think about yourself. Are you still happy? Do you think staying with him is worth it? I'm not telling you to do this or to do that because at the end of the day, it will be up to you if you're going to stay by his side or not. But I want you to remember that the world is huge and you are the protagonist of your own life. :)))

Please do not reply unless you read the whole text, sorry but the first reply was just useless...
About the second one yeah, I keep thinking but we both have to stay in this room soo it will be problematic both ways. I would really like to solve this instead of causing more trouble

Sorry I just thought maybe you didn’t have the chance to be honest Bit I will think again and give u an advise as soon as possible