So I need some input. It seems like everyday that I'm a disappointment to my family in many ways i really see it too. is there any way that i can at least try not to be a disappointment to my family.

I don't think that it's really your family being disappointed in you that you should worry about. I think that you should learn to accept yourself and try to realize that no matter what, you're you and accept that. It's hard to change people's opinions on something and I'm sure we all know that. So instead of focusing on how others feel about you, you should focus on how you feel about yourself firstly! It'll all turn out okay in the end though ^^