About a week ago I saw the army recruiter and they told me that I had to loss about 20lbs to join up. I’ve never felt more determined and terrified in my life. I mean I’ve wanted to join the military since I was little but no I’m afraid of failing to lose the weight. Yeah I know I should self motivate and push myself but the last time I was that driven I was driven to self harm. I know sounds stupid right? But if climbing over the obstacles of life was easy no one would fail.