I’m just your average depressed weeb with nothing to live for but anime. I’m 19, between semesters in college, and living away from home. I struggle leaving the house to do things like exercise and work, and I’m broke. I’m lost, and I don’t know what to do. In high school I had a 3.8 gpa, last semester in college I had a 1.6. I don’t have any passion, and don’t know what I want to do with my life. I have a job, but I’m still in training, and I’m not sure ill make enough to keep up living away from my family. I don’t want to go back to them if i can help it. It’s too stressful living with all their rules. Really, what i need most is a goal. I don’t know where I’m going to provide for myself. I just don’t know where I’m going. College doesn’t seem to hold answers for me at the moment, but I don’t know where else to go. Any choice i can think of costs a lot of money. Which I barely have enough to survive as is. The only things I could even begin to call dreams are owning a cafe and living in japan. Both would take a lot of money, time, and luck. I don’t really know what I’m asking for, but I’m at my breaking point and didn’t know where else to turn. I’m sorry for making you listen to my ramble, but I truly am greatful to those who made it to the end.

How about you make living in Japan your goal ?
It's not really impossible you know , Try looking for exchange students programs or something .. , Just do what you love doing or what you can do the best , you have to graduate first so you can be a little closer to what you want , maybe you'll get a job in Japan after you graduate or something or maybe you can go job hunting there .

I live for the same reason, so I understand, anime is my only motivation in life! So if you love it too keep loving it, after all it gives us strength. If you want to go to Japan, start simple, learn the language, that's what I'm doing through school! You can do it through apps and online courses, those are pretty easily accessible! Once you learn Japanese you could have a guaranteed job as a translator or a teacher! But don't stop there, if you watch shonen anime then you know never give up! Once you're comfortable living there keep going until you find a way to open that cafe! You could start out by working at a cafe to gain on the job experience! Just please never give up, cause when you open that cafe I promise you'll have at least one customer!!! (I want to become a mangaka so I'm sure our paths will cross in Japan! I love to draw while sipping warm milk tea, or really any kind of tea:) かんばてください！！！ー ケイ

Oh and btw you could always practice your Japanese on me! Practice practice practice whenever you have the chance! Soon, it will just come naturally I promise!;)

Thank you both for your replies, it helpsed a lot

I know that feeling. I had alike situation . But ,i guess it was harder for me because i tried suicide . The best thing i can suggest is meditation . Go outside in a rainy day ....sunny day ...cloudy day ...the day that might seem beautiful . Go out and think about yourself as a human that can do anything .try to find interest in this world and humans . If you open the door to another peson and let him/her in ,your goal will probably appear . Meditate on youself