so as back story basically a few months ago a really close friend of mine for 5 years decided that it would be better for us to part ways in life because we have taken different directions (basically she's super smart and good at stuff n im just a highschool drop out who wasted their life on video games rather than gaining any skills) so now i just feel empty and talking to others hasn't replaced them at all, it feels like everything is pointless i got nothin.

I think that person might've been a bit harsh to have just cut ties with you like that. I'd hope that she didn't go out of her way to make you feel inadequate, it sounds like you could've used some encouragement.

I don't know how old you are, but I'm sure you're too young to definitively say that you've wasted your life. If you're worried about being "just" a high school dropout, then that's a sign that it's time to make a change in yourself, as cheesy as that sounds. Go back to school, or look for jobs that have opportunities for promotion. You obviously don't have to stop playing video games, but you can find another hobby as well, maybe one that allows for more outdoor/social activity. I know video games can be a social activity, but I also know from experience that they can wind up being extremely isolating.

Figure out what kind of person you want to be, and then do it, step by step. (The best advice I ever got was to "be the person you needed when you were younger." A lot of people feel lonely and aimless as they get older, but in a lot of cases it's not such a mystery why we feel that way. Kindness and charity is healing. It sounds like such a movie cliche but it's true.)

Also, just because you spend a lot of time playing video games doesn't mean you have no skills. Everyone develops soft skills, especially during school, and you can try learning more specific skills on your own. (Like typing, Excel, and Powerpoint. Also through volunteer work with local nonprofits I've developed customer service, group work, leadership, and clerical skills– all of which I put on my job applications back when I was in high school.)

Anyway, I don't know if your goal is to reconnect with your friend. I don't know what her goodbye to you was like, but maybe she just wanted to see you push yourself to be the best version of yourself. Maybe if she sees you making efforts, you could reconnect.

But if not, then it'll be okay. People drift apart all the time in life, and it's not always the fault of either one of them. In that case, just remember to be better for yourself.

If you aren't happy with where you're at, it's not pointless to try something different. The effort won't be wasted, believe me.