In order for me to clear and sort my mind, I tend to need to rant and type it all out. So, feel free to amuse yourself with my mundane suffering and maybe add your own input.
Funny to see after all these years, I still return to this site to vent my problems. Maybe it's because this is the one place that has stayed practically stagnate after all these years? Meanwhile a lot has changed for me; I just graduated highschool, I'm busy consoling my friends who are miles away while I'm trapped on vacation, I failed my driver's test, and I'm anxiously waiting to dread doing adult things for the sake of "independence". Perhaps it is because of all of this change that I feel in a sort of limbo. As I told my friends already, "we are experiencing growing pains in an awkward stage in life where we're far too old to really cling to anyone yet far too young to be taken seriously". I suppose because of this, I can't help but question my surroundings again such as: if/why/and how to break certain relationships, how I am to go about my life and if it really is the best path among the endless choices, and even questioning my gender once again (which I feel will be a whole other rant). Despite me arrogantly saying that I have a deep introspective, I'm really bad at all if this soul searching stuff.

The dollars is definitely a good place to vent. I don't necessarily have advice. Just hang in there. It will get better eventually. A lot of people are going through similar things. You can do this. Hoped this helped. Have a nice day.

now you are only on a road that goes up, my friend