Well,maybe some of you is having the same behaviors with me.Its start off like this.I always helping this one friends of mine.Technically,randoms people.I suffer for them,getting emotionally unstable just for them. But i dont think they realize. So after a long time,i start thinking of something crazy and start hurting myself. When i seek help,the only thing that they said is im stressed out.thats what they said. So do you think i should not wearing a fake smile but be who i am or just continue what i did anyway. Im also a hardcore otaku(maybe most of us here are)sooo i tell them and got myself all the usual comment what they always said to otaku.(including the B word) Should i stop telling them about otaku and stop being one? What should i do fellow dollars? SHOULD I STOP?

Hi, yes.. kinda of troubling with the same a long time ago. From what you wrote, i feel that you simpatize too much with those people.. maybe you shouldn’t (because anyways at the end maybe they don’t care that much about you the same way you do),, so.. if you can’t let that go, here’s a question you can ask yourself: Is there a pattern? Why do i care so much about that people? Maybe you took care of someone in your past and something happened that you couldn’t stop, so you can’t let this people down; could be the reason.
And for last, be yourself. If you like anime maybe you should look for people or new friends that like the same, so they can understand you and stuff. I hope this is useful for ya, so good luck! :)
Cheers.