Have no where else to talk about my thoughts..
I want to feel like I'm pretty, thin, smart.
For a long time I've been struggling with anorexia, but I'm not thin, I'm fat. I always feel like I will be, I've always felt like this. I've seen counselors, talked to teachers, friends, family...
I still feel the same and I envy those who can stand in a crowd and smile as themselves. It's hard every day.
I never stop thinking of my body, my words make people walk away; no one wants to hear "depressing things"

I'm not quite sure if this'll help you in your situation, but I want to tell you something that has helped me before.

I'm the kind of person that feels like I'm a burden to everyone around me and that they would be better off if I left them alone. I distance myself from them when I feel that I'm being a detriment to them and I end up alone because of it. On the days I feel hopeless, I tell myself to keep pushing forward because I want to see what happens next. Some days I just have to force myself to get out of bed and do what needs to be done for the day. I do this so that I can give myself the chance I deserve, to see where my life leads me and you do too.

Being alone in a depressing situation sucks so if you ever want to talk to someone, I'm pretty much always available (lack of social circle will do that to you). If there's one point I want to drive home, it's this: on the worst of days, tell yourself (force yourself if you have to) to keep on living to the next day. You deserve the chance to live a happy life and to see what happens next and you should allow yourself that chance too.

Thank you so much, it helps what you said and I feel better then I did. I never thought anyone would respond to what I wrote.
My life is hard, I have few friends, and never anyone to talk to about my thoughts. It helps to know someone feels the same as me sometimes.

deviantart is a great place for creative invalidation.

Entropy diminishes voices of conflict.
Art will help you.