I don't really know how to put this honestly. So I guess I can start from the beginning? Um... I was taken out of an abusive home when I was 7. At 11, my step-grandfather and his wife adopted me, making them my parents. That was 7 years ago on the 22nd. I'm 18 now and struggling through school. They'd say that since I was good at it at a young age, that I'm good at it now, just now willing. That's not true at all. They switched me from somewhere I can comprehend easily to where I can't at all. This has caused some serious issues within my family. Since I turned 11, I'd been self-harming. Not out of spite, but out of addiction. I managed to stop for about two months recently. Except... With everything breaking down around me, I collapsed. I can't go a week without hearing from my father that he'd like to beat me, that he wouldn't mind going to prison. They want me out of the house asap. The problem is, apartments out here (like studio's) go for $500 a month. I work part time minimum wage and can't get it. Everyone that I've talked to about my situation has told me that I went from one abusive home to another. And frankly, I'm done. I want to pack my car and leave, but have no where to go. I just... I don't know what to do anymore. I can't sleep without crying, and I can't be awake without withering myself down to nothing, and them withering me down to less and I don't know what to do anymore.

You shouldn't let others bring you down. Who cares what others think when theyre not living your life. Do what you please. Live life the way you want. Don't let others stop you from doing things. In matter of fact, life is so amusing and strange you never know what youre going to find. Take steps. Make changes. If they really want you out. Then maybe you should leave because who even needs people like that in their life? Maybe talk to a friend and ask if you can stay with them for the time being. Maybe just start a journey of your own and walk the path of life. You never know what you'll find. If you do leave your home. Remember the Dollars are always here to lend a hand. Dont be afraid to ask for such favours. As for your depression or mental struggle. I'd say go out of your way to live more. And remember, don't let others define who you are.

i agree with STONE. don't be weak, you build up your future, so don't let it fade away now. forget about the past's pain. we all live with pain, but the impact of pain differs from ne person to another. sometimes its slight so it couldn't be felt, and sometimes it starts to hurt physically. just don't give up.