i shoved a qtip too deep in my ear to clean it because i bet it was full of ear wax as gross as that sounds -i am so sorry-and i think i blocked it and i can't hear shit what do i do am i deaf??? lord i don't wanna be deaf i already have a really bad eyesight QAQ

You should go to a doctor and see if they can send you to a specialist if they can't help. Generally the doctor will flush your ear out with water, but if it doesn't work then they try a couple other things. If those don't work then they can send you to a specialist. The specialists are like those video on youtube where a person gets their ears cleaned out. I hope this helps!