For about a month, I was obsessing over something I was convinced would happen and ruin my life. I was literally terrified, and even went as far as planning my own suicide.
But it didn't happen, and everything I had been planning meant nothing.
And then some things started to happen.
My friends, despite never knowing about this episode of suicidal thoughts, have started slowly pushing me away. One told me, to my face, she wished we never met. Another who I haven't seen in months completely ignored me when I saw her with the rest of my friends.
Any advice?

(If you ever need them again, there's tons of resources in our Suicide Hotline thread.)

It's hard to obsess without others noticing. Anxiety isn't purely internal -- it causes subtle changes in your outward body language that others can and will pick up. If they don't understand how to handle that and don't know what's going on, they can easily feel overwhelmed and left out.

In addition, you generally aren't focusing as much on other issues outside when you're worried internally. It's possible they needed you for something and you weren't there, or that they dropped hints you didn't (couldn't) pick up at the time, or that you weren't as involved in things they normally connected to you through.

These obviously put a strain on relationships.

Personally, I would reach out to reconnect and do one of two things. The first is to ask them if anything is wrong with your relationship or their personal life, as they could be having their own internal problems that are making them pull away. They might appreciate you trying to be more involved again. The other is to tell them you had a rough month, maybe that you're sorry you you may not have been there for the crew as much during it.

If they refuse to talk or are otherwise being toxic, I'd cut it off. Friends come and go. They're lights passing through that leave a little bit of themselves, a little touch of glow, wherever they stopped to rest. You'll be okay. The history you had is still there, and that glow will just help attract even brighter lights to join your journey. (Sorry if I'm being too corny lol)

I know is hard to cut ties with people you thought were your friends, but I talk from experience when I say it is a wise decision to do so.
Friends do come and go, but you have to filter through them.
Once you finish high school and move on, you don't talk to people anymore.
I have a friend that I met 11 years ago. Despite living in different countries and even continents, depsite not talking to each other daily, I know I can count on her when needed.
That is a true friend.
People use you for their personal agenda. Don't allow that. You are a wonderful person Dafodil. You'll come to meet friends that appreciate you and help you when needed. Don't let them put you down and make you feel and look bad.
You can confront them like the person above said, but I don't know what to expect from them at this point.
I wish you all the best. Things will get easier when you are older.
The world is changing. Society starts to understand anxiety and depression more.
I say be the best person you could be. For yourself. Your traits and qualities can never be taken away by anyone.